my WTF moment

These past couple of weeks have been really difficult. As I was swimming last night I wanted to think of somethings that piss me off in order to drive me to work harder in the pool. Last night I was thinking of a WTF, yes that's WHAT THE F***, moment I had last week. I was dealing with family things and then was SLAMMED with some news that was unbelievable. I'm not going to go into the details but it was something that, never in my craziest thoughts, would be something that would happen to me. It was something so beyond my world, my personality, the people that I hang out with, that it literally slapped me in the face and told me to "Wake up and get back to your real life Jane!" Luckily, it wasn't anything of my wrong doing but it was a sign to me that I needed to put myself back on the scale of balance in my life. So I began making TNT a priority in my schedule again and it really has helped. Being around such amazing, good-hearted, life-loving people was really what I needed to jump-start things for me.



With Nation's triathlon coming up in a few weeks, I was entertaining the idea of switching to the relay with a few other teammates who were injured. But as the days went on I began feeling like a quitter if I decided to do that. With all the financial and emotional support given to me these past couple of months, I was only going to do a relay? I can't do that. So I've decided to still do the triathlon, to push through these last few weeks I have to train and to suck it up and DO THE DAMN THING! It won't be fun, it won't be easy, and it will take me a long time. One thing it definitely will be though is rewarding. I know that once I crawl past that finish line, I will have overcome personal battles. I will have beaten past the struggles that I, cancer patients and anyone dealing with difficulties in their lives had to go through. Life can't be a 24/7 party that is always filled with joy. It's through the toughest times where you will be tested to build your strength. So when you have to decide whether to get things done half assed or to suck it up and push through, which one do you think you would choose?

"Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."